the other side....

The sudden shrill shriek jolted me out of the bed. it was completely dark in the room. i stood up and fumbled through the switches to find the right one. as the light glowed, everything in the room seemed to glare. it was 4 a.m. " how long had i been sleeping? "Over an hour", i told myself. how serene it felt while i was lying down! it had been a long night. the turmoil had shaken every inch of the foundation.....err....or should i say 'my existence'? i closed my eyes and tried to remember what had disturbed my tranquility. The Voice. Yes, it was a woman's scream. i put on my glasses and came out the room. why was there so much noise all around? what was this chaos all about? a dozen voices had mixed up and all i could make out was that each was interrogative and shocked except just one. it was the same voice which had shaken me up. the woman was crying as if all hell had broken loose. For Godsake, somebody tell her to be calm. she bemoaned and cursed God as if He had decided to play Devil for a while now.her voice was bereft of all patience and peace. with each passing moment her voice became unbearable. Damn everyone!! she needs to be consoled. each step i took forward seemed an eternity. my head felt so heavy. Had i sedated myself to catch up with sleep? as i dragged myself to the eventful place, i could see men who had encircled themselves around the woman. she was still crying but one could sense from her voice that she would faint any moment. her voice was so familiar. "Lord Almighty! whats that?" Blood? the place was not adequately illuminated but under the moonlight which peeped through the window, it shone like some mercuric liquid. 'Will somebody tell me whats going on here?", i asked. "Make way, let me see". why isnt anyone paying attention to me? my latter words had almost been a yell. finally i made some room for myself in the gathering and looked inside. So...she's the one. Her face looked so familiar........one which i had seen for years. but why couldnt i recall anything? was i doped when i fell asleep? my hands felt so numb. In her lap laid a girl who's back was on me. Her wrists were slashed and there was blood all around. why wasnt anyone doing anything? "get a doctor, somebody!" my voice again seemed to have fallen on deaf ears. wasnt i audible enough? i bent on my knees and kept my hand on hers. she was painfully cold for a human. i turned her towards me and in an instant my lost memory hit me like a sharp weapon. The Woman who had fainted was my mother and that dead blue girl was...........me.

i aint no angel

It all began the day i was born
you had nothing to do but sit and mourn
you searched for a halo around my head
and all i did was wish i were dead
your shrieks and screams were all i ever heard
how could i look beyond with a vision so blurred?
did you ever notice the tears i shed?
did you ever feel the emptiness i felt?
standing under the sky you showed me the stars
and i wondered if you'd ever see the scars.....
you blessed me with this fear of life
and forced me again to survive and thrive
but i aint succumbing to your wounds no more
i've finally woken up and seen the door
this path will disconnect me from your world
where heads are banged and stones are hurled
was always aloof but never alone
completely oblivion to the sun that shone
nowhere's the place i call a home
aint gon' follow no footsteps i'm making my own......
for the sin my soul will redeem
your love so alien i dont know what it means
no fighting back, no peace, no pain
i've found my wings, i cant be your angel again....

5 minute wonder.....

well....i am posting this because i ve this habit of preserving every piece of article i write. i wrote this in a wasteful class just for the heck of writing something in five minutes and then reading it before the class.


TERRORISM

India is an emerging world power but every rise of the tide is followed by an ebb as well. the greatest and the gravest threat our country faces today is terrorism. the soul of india has been brutually attacked by terrorists belonging to various religions, different countries and having myriad motives. be it the jehadis of kashmir, the ULFA terrorists of the far-east or the Tamil Tigers of Sri Lanka, the people of our country have been the victims of this macabre showdown for too long now. the recent bomb blasts in Mumbai have proved how fatal and cruel the terrorist instincts have become. it is high time that we, the Indians, who have always believed in a harmonious and peaceful existence took a strong stand against such hideous acts of terrorism and showed these barbaric elements of the society that we may be soft-hearted but steel-willed when it comes to the safety and dignity of our motherland.

WHEN YOU LOSE..............

when you lose...........................................to wage another war
when you think.........................................to pacify your heart
when you look back..................................to move ahead
when you look away.................................to listen to what she said
when you need to fly................................to feel your roots
when you dont cry.....................................to heal your wounds
when you step back..................................to be alive
when you move on....................................to hide what's inside
when you start forgetting........................to remember how it felt
when you start forgiving..........................to prove that you're the best
when you calm down................................to nurture the anger within
when you show it all..................................to let it remain hidden
when you act weird...................................to be in your senses
when you close your doors.......................to do away with the fences
when you look at the stars.......................to keep your dreams at bay
when you close your eyes.........................to face come what may
when you finally give up............................to save what you have
its time you realised that your JOURNEY OF LIFE has finally begun.......