Broken Door.............

So there.......finally i ve caught you---red-handed! Its been ages i've been running behind you. how thoroughly you've enjoyed each moment of this run-for-your-life chase. never realised how tired i was, never pitied me for the pain i've endured silently. And when i decided to finally hit you back, you turned your back on me. Come on, now!! i'm not a coward. i know how to wait. you still want to keep me hanging? no more. its your turn now. i could have shown you how humane i am had you ever shown your basic animalistic instinct to me. but you didnt. didnt even lighten up my path to downfall, didnt even give me one last chance to stand again. i'm no stranger to this devilish smile of yours. i know what and how much you still have up your sleeve for me. but now i am nobody's fool....not even my own. Ah! now i can see how you master-minded everything. from day one to this day, you've played your cards well enough. but dont forget that i've learnt it all from you.so why are you hiding behind that broken door? i dare you to pounce...can you? you think i ll forgive?? No. you think i ll show mercy? No. you think i ll pity? No. you think i ll leave you like this? well you know whats the answer gonna be. Do you know what i ll do with you...? i ll negate you. didnt understand what that means..?? well, who's the commander now, you poor thing?!!

just a little afraid

Round and round it goes
but never does it shows..
it made me change my course
...........Pardon, i'm just a little afraid.

Didnt i give all that it wanted?
left jaded,broken and haunted.
Up! it said and i complied
Doom! it said and i died
...........Mercy, i'm just a little afraid.

"Where will you go?"...it asked
stared into my eyes, completely unmasked.
just when i thought i finally saw its face
it betrayed me again with that familiar gaze.
..........Help, i'm just a little afraid.

Down it went into my skin
couldnt take it no more....filled upto the brim.
so it took me along a new direction
no thought, no time, no fake reaction
.........Wait, i'm just a little afraid.

Laugh! the world will soon crumble down
rejoice! 'cause there's not a soul around
repent! you couldnt write your own fate
pity! you want to stand and wait??
.........Believe, i'm just a little afraid.

Unheard, it left and closed the doors
unseen, it brought me to these shores
gave me a sun with a word unknown
went close to my heart and said....
.........Live, you're just a little afraid.

ehsaas pal bhar ka...

sochte the hamesha
hoga kaisa vo lamha
jab pyar khairaat ban jayega
darte the hamesha
hoga kaisa ye jahaan
jab koi apna saath chod jayega
toota hai bhram zindagi ka jo
choota hai saason ka silsila jo
karni thi khudse jo guftagu vo
dena tha zindagi ka jo saath vo
bhara hai dhuaan ab in nigaahon mein
na chah, na utsah hai ab in raahon pe
samet li thi humne to apni duniya us din
jab li thi zindagi ne kasam ki us bin
badna hai aage hume ab tanha
na hoga pura ab koi bhi sapna
chahte to the hum har vaada nibhana
chahte to the khud ko khud se milana
ab na hai pehchaan na yaad koi
ab na hi aabaad na barbaad koi
dekhenge mudkar jab bhi is safar ko
na kosenge kabhi bhi is nazar ko
jisne dikhaya to tha hume khwab pal bhar ka
par diya hai dhokha aur choda hai saath zindagi ka.....

SANGHARSH KARNE DO

pankh to hai par ud nahi pata
pair to hain par chal nahi pata
prashasti patron ka bhojh
koi dhoyega kaise?
por-por jab hai bandha
swarn shrinkhla se
tab mukti-anand mein
koi ramega kaise?
pag jab jakar gaye
swaym ke agyan se
antr-jyoti bhuji jab
swaym ke abhimaan se
tab kaise koi dekhega
srijan ki sundarta
jeevan ki amarta
smrishti ki udaarta
prem ki madhurta
urja viheen jeevan rath
kaise apnayega divye path
vaasna ke jvaar
kar rahe shar-shar
tumhari di sankalp shakti
daanv par lagi hai--
ab tumhare bhakti
rath ke pahiye
kab ke path se utar gaye
kirti dhvja gir gayi
mandap bikhar gaye
is tute rath ko
ab kaun sambhalega?
mujhe vartmaan dekhne do
ateet mein mat bhatkao
pauranik garima ke paath
main ab nahi sununga
ateet ke geet nahi gaaunga
mujhe nahi chahiye shamshaan ki shanti
mujhe ashaant hi bane rehne do
mujhe aage badne do
veh paath padne do
ki.........
main thakun nahi
haarun nahi
bhale hi tuut jaun
bikhar jaun..

MUJHE SANGHARSH KARNE DO


(this poem has been a part of my diary since eight years...dont know who wrote it but never knew one day it will hold true for me to such an extent.......)